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Today I have realized with things..nothing Is ever really going to be good in my life. I mean When I was younger hell when we all were younger we had so so so so much and then we get older and have all these problems...I think I do a good Job at shit though I try to atleast. Things about this blog I made sure About...No one ever knows my location unless I gave it to them And I doubt my Email is known either. I want Comments of all Kinda on all these blogs. nothing that shall be said can hurt me cause I know you all do not know me. And do not know my life..Cept what I tell you I mean Gimmie some feed back call me an ass hole call m a Loser I am just fueled to Keep typing and doing shit. Does it make you feel good? Do it..I just hope there are some out there who are understanding sometimes You fdall into something..And You are stuck in it. How many people Get married because they had no choice not cause they love someone and then they end up fucking up there life and everyone else? Eh well who cares...Life is..Life Mine is different then yours..


Anyway things are annoying I hink I said this before but shall say it again...Females in this area are to damn hard to come by I just want some..Release..Something.What are your thoughts? huh? Who cares...I am not looking for help or for someone to fall for me I am sharing this with all you..Maybe now you can all have something more to talk about during your daily rutine of life...That you get sucked into

This week

Okay Nothing new as happened atleast Nothing I think but I shall Say it all l anyway okay first my Ex Slave came up to my town rented a room for like 109 and I fucked her quickly. I found out she is knocked up by another guy. I do not really Care about that shit though. I am happy It is not mine.Though I fucked her alot and busted my load in her she never got knocked up...Now I am abit Worried About that cause I fuck my GF who wants another baby and she has yet to get preg..With her I have had 4 kids...and weirdly She has not gotten knocked up....I know I know I say i do not want more babies with her. but If I can't Get her preg then my Job has a Breeder is kinda Done..How can I breed if I am shooting blanks? How did this happen?..Is it even possible to happen? Like when I fucked my pet I would try to make my Cum not knock her up..And when I fuck my GF I sometimes think of The Ex -slave...Is my Cum reacting saying it's her push out the blacks Go go go go go! All Fakes GO!...I doubt that is Possible at all so..Yeah.

Aside from that..It is the hardest thing To do ..Up where I live It is nearly impossible to find a Female for some sort of..Well play Discretly Of course..I still wonder on why I try to cheat..What is wrong with me..I know alot of things are fucked up in my life but..I dunno is that a Good enough Reason? The only thing she doesn't Do the way other females and Good Cock sucking whores do is Suck my cock like Crazy...But oh well not all females Do as you want them to do..Right? I wont blame it all on her something..I must be doing something wrong too..

Now Here Comes the Shocker

Algiht You have been reading abit of my life for awhile now. Well..Here is something more you do not know about me I am into BDSM The Life Style into the D/s. I am into and Seeking to own Slaves (Females Only) For various Reasons.This is something else my Girl is against me on sadly. I mean she doesn't Understand If I had a Financial Slave We be pretty set. I would get money from her. And sort it out for her bills and For my own Needs. But she is To..I do not know..Selfish..Jealous Normal To want that or See the good in the out come. I have One long distance Slave She is black Amazing huh? A black feamle Slave non Bitchy and loud? lol..Steriotyping heh..And I have been Through about..Three altogether I think? One named...Eh Lemme leave that out She was a White female..Is a white female Young Girl in college She lied to me though. Even When I asked her to be honest just tell me I would be ok with it She still lied Without knowing she already Told me Along time ago. I met her through another White Female Who Desided not to vnture into a Relation with me because I was Black and her aunt would hate That..And Kick her out the house or.Disown her..My beliefe is If someone can Disown you so easily..They never loved you in the first place. That Hurt. But I Got over it..Cause I have to move on I can not Dwell on shit.

Another Female A White Girl She lives Slightly Closer then all of the others i speak with..She is Young to I think 18 Sexy white Girl. She has abit of medical Problems and I have not seen her in awhile Hopfully I shall soon though. I am hopping to have a House of Slaves. My Three or ..Two Wives And The rest Slaves For training Breeding, Sex, Anything I desire all and all. I am speaking to alot of Slaves. None Seem to have a real interest in me aside from friendship Mainly because They all live states away So I don't Stress it to much I mean IF i was speaking to one near me then..I would want to press it on abit. heh..Other then that I know afew Females Normal Seeming Girls That want me..Though I doubt all of then understand me and my Poly ways and Wants....Really I just want to fuck and impregnat ...Biuld my family biuld my life Pimp...Heh Live Happily. As some may say it.

This is the real Me. Looking back on how i was raised I am not to sure How I got this way but I think....I have a feeling on how with my mother being how she is. And Sex being all around me all my life (parents fucked like right infront of me) So this is who I am and I love it.

Life Aint all bad I guess.

Well okay. I say life is not all that bad cause I know this girl loves me. I think However she treats me mean...I do the same to her though I wont lie I attack her with..Words like she does to me but usually only after she does to me. And no time before. I think of leaving her every now and again...But..I think I am only wanting to for the wrong reasons Such as..Sex with other females. I have so many net Friends and so many who want me in that special way..And I wont lie It is tempting I think about it all the time. Though I do not think it is a good enough reason for me to leave my family. But I have had other pussy and nothing is better...Anyway I know i am wrong i can not leave on bullshit like that. All I can do is sit and wait and if Someone comes along maybe have a goodSide peice Or something. I know it's Wrong ...I can't Help it. I think I am..Just one who gets bored easily or maybe I ..Feel I need to have sex with many different females to make myself feel better? Who knows...

Aside from all of that...I don't know if I have more to say..I have my online friends a Female my most trusted female Friend..I love her alot she is cool..She helps my day sometime..Aside from the other females I know I never lie to her about anything Somepeople know nothing about my real life people I talk to on the net. But most kind of do..