I dunno what to call this.

Alright I have come to an conclusion about somehting I am Denying m GF as much as she is denying me I mean ok..I know she loves me and I love her But I think aside from the same ole same ole shit I am tired of. (like the same Rutine we do everyday and all the time) I think cause we are into different things. Or atleast she is not into what I am Then I do the same to her and deny her of things she wanna do ok like Lets start with sexual. I am into Gothic looking things. I wore nail polish before..That was it really Those black braclets and Spiked bands and shit like that. She like my ex thinks that's some freak shit and by freak she means like..Different shit she is not into . And Because I am black i should not be wearing shit like that. When did my race make for things i should and could wear? Then there is little things like movies she wants to watch straight up Horror I love horror and thrillers and shit but not like that. I want to watch other shit I wanna Share other shit with her One movie I watched alone would have loved to watch with her. but she said she is not into that kind of movie. It was the Curious Case of Benjahmen Button . But no no that kind of shit is not for her. So is it me or what we just different as all hell? I know people say some times Differences mix or some shit like that but.. I think in this case no. Okay that is just some normal shit off the top of my head.

Sexual shit..she has not denied me fucking any hole she has but she will fight for her ass not to be touched. She wont swallow...That's alright really..And she do not really suck dick at all and in this I have stoped eating pussy.. but I know if the female I am fucking has a nice pussy i will eat her out. I know from the other females I fucked I will with out a doubt. . Anyway her main thing is me to come in her pussy breed her knock her up and shit. That puts me in the hole for another fucking kid. And that means another Year or something I am forced with her..Am I right? And I know I say it like I do not wanna be here or being here is the worst thing ever. It is not really but BUT I think if we were not together there be better for us out there I know what I want in life she wants nothing to do with that kinda shit. and I know what she wants and I am not willing to give it. (Mainly if I have to stay) . And Yes I have tried talking to her she doesn't wanna hear her so there. lol..This is why I continue to just do what It is I do..I wont say I am not happy but I am not slap happy..I am ok with what I got I just know I can have much more and so could she .

I think of this if you were a female and You had the same run of the mill life with your BF and just did the same shit everyday Why would you wanna stay with him? Yeah you love him but...Is he boring you? Are you boring him. You rarely cook for him...When you wash clothes it is mainly the shit load of childrens clothes you brought of craigs list or something. never his shit and sometimes your shit. You pretty much leave him to dress like a bum and your self at times Yes your kids dress alright. but your man got fucked up gear leading him to wash his own shit all the time he cooks mainly and washes dishes cause you wont and you say you can't. All you two do is take care of the kids you got. You two never have time for each other with all the kids he is shooting into you and you wont use birth control nor will he use the male version of it(Fuck no i wont) ...Anyway Tell me how the hell is she happy? And Some where deep inside of her I know she gotta be feeling like I feel.